13 posts tagged “ma”
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Hari ini, 18 haribulan Ogos, 2007 genaplah setahun arwah ibunda saya meninggal dunia. bukan saya tidak pernah menghargainya semasa beliau hidup, cubalah tanya ahli keluarga saya yang lain, saya adalah anak yang paling manja dengan ibu saya. Dan saya tahu mungkin kalian juga begitu.
Saya bersumpah dengan nama Allah bahawasanya ibunda saya itulah tempat saya meluahkan segala masalah dan tempat saya mendapat kasih sayang yang paling sempurna selama hayat beliau.
Al-Fatihah.
ah few !! you know I have suffered a bad headache for almost 2 months. people keep on teasing me and sez that I'm pregnant ! I have low blood pressure (as well as my late mom) with the BP (blood pressure) measurement, 90/50. that makes me unable to walk under the sunlight, at noon, and long moment standing.
and I lost my appetite too. the only things I ate were laksa penang, sushi and 'kek batik'.
after a week resting at maksu's, now I'm back to normal. and will be changing the vox theme later. (sorry for that babies theme, and again, PINKies..headache mode ok) and now I know PINK can relief my headache, just a little !
so today I drove to Melaka town that I missed very much. paid a visit to al-Rajhi Bank. [and I'll tell ya why--my goal rite now is, after I graduated soon I planned to apply for a job there, love al-Rajhi Bank, don't ask me why. that's because the uniform--plain brown 'baju kurung sort of' with scarf/veil/tudung. I love that outfit. and Celcom's as well. NOTE: position expected: teller/ front counter helpdesk]
and get my TNB bill paid.
and get my new account for home phone and streamyx. yeay !!!! it's MINE now.
and paid the car rental, fuel, parking coupons.
THERE GOES MY MONEYYYYYYYY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I missed to drive. for 2 months I can't hold a steering. a simple touch will causes me muntah !!!!
I missed KB so much but I'm afraid I can't hold on too long in the bus. well sooner or later I have to go back. Abah's gonna off to Kalimantan. and bubbye home. no more place that I can call 'home'.
'home' for me when Ma was around. alive. how I missed that.
it's kinda hard when you have to menumpang kasih sayang with your aunty, uncle and cousins. like it or not, I don't have anyone that willing to look after me. anymore. until I found Maksu. and Che Da. both are Ma's sisters.
both are very simillar to Ma. physically, voice, face. almost the same. and that's why I feel comfortable enough.
love me like you love Ma.
owh gosh, Ma never ask me to plead, please to people.
whatever the reason is, yang pentingly live happy. if you don't mind, I love this way of writing, campur-campur bahasa. I'm Malay, maaa !
watch out for more updates. as long as I'm fine.
today is July 1st. if Ma is still alive, she will be turning 54. i just can't remember the day i gave her my birthday gift, it was a baju kurung. she denied to accept it and the reason she'd gave--"i don't want it".
yeah yeah, she really don't need it coz in less than a month she was taken away.
anyway Ma, i really miss you now and forever.
and you know Ma, your daughter is unwell. =(
I miss my childhood days. Mizi, Mizam and me. We played pondok-pondok together.
Mizi, not having any family nicks. (I hate him now)
Mizam, as known as "Ma Asuh" (lepas dia buang air dia jerit dari toilet, "Ma..asuh !")
Me, as known as "Kepey". (Mizam gave this. I dunno the meaning)
We enjoyed playing. When Mizi's in hostel. I played "Jual-jual" with Mizam. Gosh, Mizam had business talent since he's 8 ok. Respect-lah.
After a few moments later...heard someone's screaming out loudly.
That was me. After being teased by Mizam. (I'm the only girl, but I love to play boy's game..and Mizam not letting me did it. and he teased me by calling me freaking names)
and Ma came down to our play room to settle the mess. Ma always bring me far a bit from Mizam when we had a quarrel.
and we blamed each other for begin teasing. and Ma replied, "Is that hurts you?".
we both said, "yeah it hurts in my heart".
when Abah taking us out to somewhere. and Abah met someone and had a chit chat. while Mizam playing with something that available around. I followed him but he refused and said, "Go follow Abah."
during weekend, Abah had a carwash. We both like taking off our clothes except boxer, and "swimming" on the floor. dapat mandi free. main air.
Mizam has been circumsized. I took a sneak peek into his sarong. Uh? weird thing. Hahahahahaha.
Mizam was counting his award trophies. "1, 2, 3,...17". "Haha..I won by 3 extras from you !". compared to me.
Abah took our picture with our cats. Thank goodness Ibu Putih, the female cat I was holding not poo-poo on me but Mizam's being poo'ed by Abu, the male cat. hahahaha. Serves you right !
During Ma's funeral, we both cried a river. I'm the most. and Mizam comforted me, "Hey,..it's a taboo to cry in front of dead people".
Without Ma, we are now living apart. Mizam in JB. I'm at Melaka. Mizi in KL. Syidan (yang lambat lahir tak masuk dalam geng kami 90-an) in Dungun. Abah in KB. If Ma still alive, I think we're not gonna live like this. and live in sorrow. wishing for a happiness. O Allah, please grant my wishes. Amin.
semalam tidur awal.
mimpi Ma. (untuk yang tak tahu lagi, ibu saya sudah meninggal dunia)
dah lama tak mimpikan dia.
dia datang tepuk belakang aku sebab aku muntah-muntah.
dia layan aku baik sangat macam masa dia masih hidup.
dia pesan,"bayar la hutang dulu. nanti boleh dapat lebih daripada tu"
aku belum bayar bil letrik dengan streamyx lagi. hari ni baru nak bayar.
dan duit hard cover FYP yang Pejan dahulukan.
aku bangun je dari tidur, memang aku sendawa banyak kali, macam angin kat dada tak lepas keluar. macam lepas muntah pun ada.
dan hari ni aku terkejut sebab dapat duit allowance !
Alhamdulillah, terima kasih Allah !
selamat hari ibu Ma.
selamat hari ibu Nenek.
Ma dengan Nenek dapat sambut sekali di sana.
hati sedih.
maaf sebab tak pernah bagi hadiah hari ibu kat Ma.
Ma tak pernah suruh. Ma tak pernah mintak.
Cuma doa yang Ma harapkan.
InsyaAllah.
Tell us about a lesson you had to learn the hard way.
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To live without mom, that's the hardest thing. Since I'm the only daughter in my siblings, I have to learn everything on my own; from cooking, take care of the family; everything. Since she's gone, I don't have anything new to wear on. She'd always buy me new pairs of suits and accessories. I shared all my problems with her and now, I don't have any idea where and to whom would I share my problems with. Still, until now, I hardly believe that my mother is gone. For ever. I truly miss her. I cried every night before I sleep, thinking of me, how could I continue living without her? I'm living like hell coz there's some fella who jealous with me, especially in campus, there's some faculty-mates who always backstabbing and made up stories about me. I know they still have their moms at home, I couldn't imagine how they'll face the death of their moms after this. We'll see. What goes around comes all the way back around dudettes !
Like this song, the lyrics sez, "I am not afraid to keep on living. I am not afraid to walk this world alone. "
Show us something you've had for a really long time.
Submitted by dee.
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my NK 3200. i've been using it since Feb 2004. thanks Ma for this ! it was the most-wanted gadget. yeah it was, but now, it's a trash, nobody wants even it's free. btw it has a name; Norika Akumi. since my name's initial is N.A, and at that time i was dating Mohd Nashrul Aswaad - also N.A (sori flat..) so i wanted to have another N.A as well ! anyway flat, if you read this, i hope u ok. and i'm missing you and those days. new year at KLCC with iqa and azharr, putra lrt, selipar terlekat kat pintu lrt, kena tinggal kat lrt, naik motor hujan pakai plastik dalam helmet, mmu cyberjaya ! etc.
ucap selamat pada neng izyan, karna udah bisa nyetil mobil segalak. wah sekarang gue udah punya supir. oh maap ya gue bukan ngomong kamu supir gue. canda aja.
tadi sore, gue ama namira ama izyan ke jusco. laper dong. udah makan tadi mau makan lagi. waduh ! gue ini mau jadi apa ya? nga punya pekerjaan lain selain dari makan.
tadinya, gue singkap kartu-kartu ucap selamat di toko. terliat kartu hari ibu. terus, gue jadi sedih bangat. ya kali ini nyokap gue udah nga ada. makanya gue udah nga bisa ucap selamat hari ibu buat dia. dulu adik gue canda ama nyokap gue, lucu bangat, diambilnya kerudung nyokap gue yang udah dipake, terus dikasi. nyokap gue kaget, terus dibukain bungkusannya, pintar bercanda ya !
ya udah, gue langsung nga hepi gitu. gue itu kangen ama nyokap gue. ni gue bikin kartu ucap selamat hari ibu sendiri. hasilnya, liat sendiri dong ! kalau diijinin Allah, gue pengen bangat ketemu ama dia, kalau langsung mati lagi bagus. gue tu bukan nga pernah berdoa untuk mati. kapan pun nga tau bila doa gue bakal makbul. ya deh, dadaaaa.
